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Friday, July 30th, 2010
12:20 am	dear world... Revenge is a human construct. It is evil, has no true purpose nor does it ever yield positive results. It only seeks to lower someone's level. I will never teach again because of vengence. Someone wished me harm. They succeeded. I am now undergoing court proceedings. Best case scenario, I am found innocent. Likely scenario, I am given probation and will never find a respectable job, let alone teaching or military. Worst case scenario... twenty years behind bars. Think about that. Twenty years. That's longer than I can remember back. I have a strange question. Why is it that I am so able to forgive the person who turned me in, while others will not let go of the hate? Hate only breeds more hate. Violence only breeds more violence. That person may have been vengeful, but if I were to seek revenge...would that accomplish anything besides ruining someone else's life? No. I don't think that person deserves to have their life ruined. I'm done with LJ for a good while. For those of you that are unaware, I'm currently undergoing felony proceedings. Hence, why I have been...shall we say...a bit of a hermit. Never waste life like the person who wasted mine. I cannot talk about the details here for legal reasons. However, I do want everyone to know that, though I didn't do anything wrong in this instance I am accused... I may deserve it for my past. May God bless you all. Live happy, healthy lives and never, ever take a moment with your friends, lovers, parents or children for granted. PS: Some of you already knew about my past. I told you when I started dating you, because you had a right to know as my significant other. You didn't mind so long as I kept myself under control. Please don't paint yourself as an unknowing victim. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 22nd, 2010
5:10 pm	FML I'm trying to end the drama. It's not working. I don't know what to do. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 3rd, 2010
10:18 am	There's something bigger than me. Hm. After giving it some thought and yes, I say it, prayer... I have a son to live for. I want to be the best father around. Things I will be changing within the next day to a month: A) Quit lying. It's more trouble than it's worth. B) Pray. If someone's listening, then it's worth it. C) Easy on the libido. You had your chance to do that, and it got you a kiddo. Sex isn't always the answer, and you have no IDEA how weird that sounds coming out of my mouth. D) Be a little more selfless. Yes, we know your selfish, Squall. But you can be selfless when you want to be. So from now on, I will want to be. E) Go to church. My father had a good point; he's not a big "faith" guy either. But at the very least, it's good to do something familiar, where the priest's job is to do you good for an hour or so by telling you how to be a better person. F) Quit whining about Andrea. She is who she is, I am who I am. We are going through a divorce, so there is no need to make it worse by gossiping. G) Be a better father to my son. I'm his father. I'm his first and presumably best teacher (male bonding and all that). I would never forgive myself if he grew up to be me. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 17th, 2010
6:50 pm	Dude... If you don't have flavoring for burgers... pepperoni mixed in with the chuck, cheese too, bake it up good and slow. 100% dee-lish. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 14th, 2010
9:26 am	Grrr... C'mon! What's it take to get a job in my degree, huh?! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 8th, 2010
8:56 pm	Red Red wiiiiine... Still not used to being a depressed drunk. I think i might be bipolar. Hm. I don't think I can feel love. Like romantic love. I love my family. I love my friends. I love Levi more than life. But there is no girl out there for a failed officer, a single father, and a pathetic husband. I've come to terms with this. Maybe once I get a real job. But then I still can't even feel for lovers like I should. (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 30th, 2010
8:49 am	Moving day!!! So I will spend a couple of days moving stuff. WHOOOO! (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 21st, 2010
1:50 pm	OH HOLY CRAP!!! Totally forgot about my tax refund!!! Guess who can stay in Lincoln, bitches?! OH YEAH THIS GUY! Also Holy crap I have realized I have a helluva lot of resumes and apps out. I think...about 35 in total this year. Six of which are stacked on the chair right next to me to go out tomorrow as soon as I have stamps and can weigh them so I know how many stamps I need, lol. ^_^ And on a separate note, I had my interview last week, and that seemed to go pretty well for a guy who hadn't slept for about 28 hours before hand. Speaking of which, I need to go to sleep now. But I can't. I have bills I need to pay today. BAW!!! Never enough time, but I'm beginning to think of sleep as something a little more optional than in years past. Picked up a lot of that from the friggen damn Navy OCS. Sleep sucked there. Cause when you got sleep, you had dreams about getting slaughtered. Then, when you woke up and realized all that stuff you just dreamed about was going to happen in five...four...three...two... GET OUT ON LINE RIGHT NOW NASTY PIGS!!! MOVE MOVE MOVE!!! Woah...sorry, flashback. I need that caffeine patch from Meet the Robinson's. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 18th, 2010
2:38 am	St. Patty's day All my peeps bailed hardcore. All of em. *sigh* I've been awfully depressed the past couple of weeks. This didn't help my situation any. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 17th, 2010
8:24 am	Interview in four hours! Gah! Interview with Sister Bernadette later today, and I haven't slept in about 24 hours. And I won't be sleeping till after the st. Patty's day stuff tonight. Like the friggen Navy all over again. Kinda...nice, actually. ^_^ (Comment on this)
Friday, March 12th, 2010
1:37 am	I'm officially acting old. I just spent two hours looking at draperies, sheets, bedspreads and coordinating bathroom rugs. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 11th, 2010
12:51 am	Protect mai ballz! Also hi, I need an artist. Anime Nebraskon will have a story this year and it must be chronicled through the art skills of someone better than I at the drawing of the anime-ish things. Any volunteers? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 9th, 2010
11:48 pm	I would give anything other than my son to get back into the Navy. (Comment on this)
9:18 am	TEACHING JOB!!! WHOOO! I have my first interview next week at the Lincoln Parochial schools! WHOOO! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 5th, 2010
9:54 pm	D'awwwww My baby boy just won his first cosplay contest! ^_^ (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 2nd, 2010
12:21 pm	Which one of you jerks gave me the flu? Huh? Boooooo (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 1st, 2010
10:14 pm	Suba-ra-shi chin chin mono Kintama no kame aru Sore no oto saru bo bo Iie! Ninja ga imasuuuuuuuu Hey hey let's go kenka suru Taisetsu na mono protect my balls! Boku ga warui so let's fighting... Let's fighting love! Let's fighting love! Kono uta chotto baka wa Wake ga wakaranai Eigo ga mecha-kucha Daijobu - we do it all the time! Hey hey let's go kenka suru Taisetsu na mono protect my balls! Boku ga warui so let's fighting... Let's fighting love! Let's fighting love! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 24th, 2010
9:16 am	Two worlds, two brains. The concept of left and right brain is something both fascinating and frightening to me. People with a purely right brain lack the organizational skills to succeed in life. With every job requiring applications and resumes and cover letters, it stakes pure right brained individuals at a sharp disadvantage. Pure left brained individuals do this quite well. Many of them end up in finance or engineering. Through some effort, one may "cross over" and obtain the skills of the opposite brain. I have had to in order to raise my son properly and survive in the military, brief as that was. I am now a fair balance of left and right. But my right brain was a...dreamer, per say. My right brain didn't do logic, it had dreams. I was looking over a friend's webcomics on her deviant art. Now I am just kind of sitting here, upset with myself over a number of things. First of all, why does an emphasis on the left brain deteriorate that of the right? What happened to the days I dreamed of being a "gundam pilot?" (I admit, this is part of the reason that I wanted to fly in the Navy...something I refer to as Duo Maxwell Syndrome.) Albeit, this is dangerous in the military...if a Leo tries to fight like he's a Deathscythe he gets himself and his other Leos killed. Left side of my brain says this is a dumb post. Right side is mostly silent today. But when he was awake, he said "Hey, what happened to the stories I used to write? The songs I wrote? Well? That girl on your F list can do it, I used to be able to, so why not now?" I feel that my pursuit of stability has lost my creativity. I'm also mad at myself because I still can't get sh** done even with my left brain on overdrive. Andrea doesn't have a job again, so all disposable income is now going to extra rent and friggen damn bills that she can't pull up for. I need another job quick. The other option is to move back in with my parents. That's not a good solution; that's basically saying "I failed." I need a real job quick. But I won't get a REAL job till next fall. So I need a solid, better paying job now as a temp. Ugh. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 17th, 2010
11:39 pm	Look inside yourself, Joseph. You are more than what you have become. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 15th, 2010
9:01 am	A realization... This is the first valentines day since 2001 (Freshman year of high school) that I do not have a valentine. Yeah, definitely taking time off from women for a good while. The above statement is kinda scary. (Comment on this)